1. the idea that by losing a parent, there is opportunity for personal growth that wasn't so apparent or so available or so SOMETHING while they were alive. i've been mulling this idea over for a week now. again, i'm thinking the price of this opportunity for personal growth is too high - but it is so inevitable. i read somewhere that all we have is our response - we do not control this ride, but the one thing over which we have control is how we live our life to those unexpected parts. what do i want to be remembered for. and how can living my life make my mother proud when she's not here.
2. i feel parts of me waking up again - sorrow and grief put the screws to some parts of my life, but not totally and not forever. i've been thinking of the movie Fearless - do you remember when jeff bridges' character eats that strawberry at the end and he has that cathartic moment? he almost dies because he realizes that he is alive. great stuff.
3. _____________________________________ - i can't put it into words at this moment - needs further percolating, evidently.
thinking, thinking
christine
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I so loved that movie and I never thought I would relate it to your situation, but you're right on. Like the Mona Lisa, you made the corners of my mouth turn heavenward :-) Love you Miss Plum!
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