Wednesday, April 22, 2009

there's no way to avoid it, it seems

this week, my cubicle-mate at work lost her sister after a long illness - a sister who was also a best friend. i have heard them laugh together every day and whisper over family secrets. i know that my friend is relieved her sister isn't suffering anymore, but she has been just dreading this end.

so, i thought - WELL, at least i won't have to suffer THAT loss, the loss of a sister. but you know, i have many girl-friends, and they ARE my sisters, they have always been my stand-in sisters. when i was a kid, i used to imagine i had sisters, lots of them; younger, older, twin sisters. the last death of a friend was when i was a teenager. but nothing since and that's because i've been lucky that way.

but i will be grieving many losses of sisters; i can see that now. just when i think i've got an "out" to avoid grieving, i understand that there is no such thing in this life.

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